What I've learned this week (so far):
1. A taste of one's own medicine is a bitter reminder of how flawed we are.
1a. Feeling someone else's pain isn't really possible, but feeling our own pain in the same way that we've dealt it out to others is a powerful lesson.
2. I want desperately to be independent because ----- who needs a reason?
3. Under extreme stress, I am ugly.
4. The happy pills had their advantages. Feelings suck.
5. Feelings are necessary.
6. Music is a better drug than anti-depressants.
7. Vodka and determination can make a frozen gas cap lock unstick.
8. Sometimes having an epiphany about someone else can be like opening a door upon one's own psyche.
For example, realizing that someone who is quite accustomed to being the smartest kid in the room, the best person in their field but who also refuses to retain information about the most basic aspects of using a computer is being mentally obstinate because he/she cannot accept being not the best.
It's not that they can't. It's that they won't.
Which could be applied to yours truly when it comes to writing. Admitting this doesn't please me, but there it is stark and real. Damn it.
Now that I know this about myself, it's up to me to fix it. Damn it again.
This is like a hell list of vaguebooking, but until I decide whether or not to start blogging anonymously, I've gone as far as I'm willing to go. My point here isn't to shame anyone but rather to remind myself that Karma, the way most of us misunderstand it, is indeed a bitch.
Writing this does help, too. I don't know how it does, but it does.
What have you learned this week?